The only way I can begin to plan to break the cycle is by actually knowing the cycle itself.
I began to think about this last night – while drifting off to sleep. Yesterday was a pretty bad day for me. I recalled that the last bad day was around the 12th of April.
The total cycle time was about a month.
As I had written about the last down day I was able to go back over that post. The details of the bad days matched almost 100%.
My bad days are like a depression shutdown. I withdraw myself from all that is going on around me. I don’t mind being on my own but I prefer to have someone with me. I also now know that think about the same topics and things.
Why do people that I have helped in the past not help me – I ask myself.
The only difference this time around is that I took my own advice and reached out to a friend. I told him I was having a bad day. He responded straight away with an extremely positive response. This helped me a lot.
This morning I enrolled in a CBT online course. I have in the past visited a CBT Councillor and I had good results from the sessions. The sessions helped me to get my life in focus and develop a plan to proceed.
So how exactly do I propose to break the cycle?
Awareness – being aware of the cycle and the timing is critical for me. Mapping out the cycle and what I do during times of depression.
Planning – putting a plan in place to help me to deal with daily living. Also specific planning around the times when the depressive times kick in.
Routine – for me this is the best tool to start the fight to break the cycle. A routine should be based on how things occur when I am not depressed or a lot happier. I have written a fairly popular piece on Routine – HERE
Another big piece of work is to actually deal with the other issues that continually arise when I am depressed. It is difficult to work out of a depression as the condition itself takes so much energy. But it is totally necessary to use some energy to get things going in a positive direction.
Social Media plays a huge part in my life. Honestly in general it is more positive than negative. But I have noticed that I am particularly negatively effected around the down times. I read a lot into stuff that I see. I also tend to troll pages that I have removed myself from. I had originally removed myself or un-followed as the content of those pages upset me.
Part of my routine around down times is to avoid Social Media and take a day or two worth of a detox.
My routine will also involve getting more active as I approach the down time.
Because I am documenting the cycles here on The Lemonade Kart – I will be in a position to see the changes that are occurring.
We are all in control of our own lives and it is critically important to understand that we have the power to effect change. If you want to break the cycle – start becoming aware of the cycle itself. How often does it occur and what happens during the down time?
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